A lot of things happen in a person's life. Many things certainly affect the course of ur life in more ways than one. Sometimes these effects are short-lived, while sometimes they affect u for such a long time that it feels like a whole life-time. If the effects are good, u dont want them to change... That's pretty easy to understand.
But, when these effects r unfavourable, things that make u sad, make u feel low, very low at times... those r the times when u want that things shud get back to the way they initially were.
Many things lead to this situation. Sometimes, there r circumstances, that neither u nor anyone else can change. Sometimes, u and/or others surrounding u r at fault. Well, not exactly at "fault", but maybe not right at that given point of time.
Things might worsen if u r at one end and there r more than one people at the other, and poles become the order of the day. This polarity might lead to further complications. That's because more often than not, there is power in number. And obviously, "one" IS less than "many". When such a situation arises, u find urself under a barrage of a series of questions and at times accusations. Because of the difference in the polarity, the flow becomes one-way. U find urself at the recieving end, hardly getting any chance to speak ur heart out. Sometimes u listen quietly, not knowing what else to do. Rather, mostly u listen.
U might as well understand that it takes two to tango. If there is something that went wrong, then there are somethings that both sides did wrong. U understand urs. And then...
And then u take the courage to say it out loud. To admit that u had been wrong at some places and u want to remove all such happenings from the future. U really want it from the bottom of ur heart. U take a long time to choose ur words. To frame what u wanna say. U go through it in ur mind, over n over again... so many times that u virtually remember what u want to say. Finally, ur doin' something that u hadn't ever thought u wud do... Ur choosin' ur confessions...
But... u find that u can't really confess those confessions to the ones that u want to... Again, many reasons, and possible explanations for those reasons... Some u buy, but some u really don't...
What r u supposed to do now? What abt the confessions u hv chosen?
U been there?
How does it feel?
© Prateek Sharma Mar 2006
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